August
12, 2019
Lately,
it seems like I only want to write one of these after having one of my night
time walks. I don’t do them as much as I want to, sadly, but hey, I’m on vacation
now, so, here we are. First, an addendum. To the list of things I wish my past
self knew, TOILET SEAT COVER! Can’t believe I forgot this, as I wrote my last
list right after buying a new one. Get a poofy, fluffy, cushiony toilet seat
cover for yourself and come winter or summer, you will always have a throne fit
for a king. I am 100% serious.
These
last few weeks, nay, these last few months have been difficult for me in a
number of ways. Stress from studying for tests, an incredible amount of
sickness(I missed the most work I ever have this month) and a few family and
personal crises. But, hey, I’m still here.
After
being sick and out of work for four days in a row, going back gave me a new
found appreciate for my kids. They were a bit nervous meeting our head
teachers(my lovely bosses) but I feel they all did a great job with their
English. It really did feel good going back and seeing them again after my
absence. I had more energy, despite my weakened body, and some were worried
about me, which was touching. Haha, one of my most surprising moments is
homework I had given one class three weeks prior that I didn’t expect them to
remember, because I was sick, they took out right away when I showed up and
while I couldn’t tell them right then and there, I felt so proud of them. They were
paying attention.
I’m
trying to wean off of sodas. I did this stateside when I had my homemade stevia
tea, but they have a honey tea alternative here that I’m trying to slowly
replace my soda stock with. Besides, I haven’t drunk almost any soda in like
2-3 weeks because of my sickness. I missed exercising too, so tonight’s night
walk was very refreshing. Just me, my music, and a bit of darkness. Pleasant.
I’m
dealing with some personal issues now, but I’m trying not to let it get me
down. As my best friend said, self care is important, so I’m practicing it in
various ways. Good food, games that I can stop, but which also are fun and don’t
make me angry, and good memories. Speaking of memories, I did have a few sad
points. They were…mostly from reminiscing. An old singer I used to love, but
fell out of favor with, a girl friend left behind long ago(If my current GF is reading
this, NOT YOU, this was in my college days) and of course, the passing of Sir
Terry Pratchett. His work was…and remains some of the most thoughtful and
important fantasy satire in history. The writing remains amazing even decades
down the line. But he’s gone and…that’s a bit sad.
I
haven’t been writing due to countless factors, but this holiday, I want to jump
back into it. I need to edit my book if it’s ever going to see the light of
day. And I have a few other hobbies I want to return to. You might think
holiday means travel, but not so much. I want to go to the bath house and visit
Ishinomaki, but my health determines all this. I’m still fighting off a bit of
sickness, mostly just a cough, but I don’t want a relapse, so I’m focusing heavily
on rest this season. Summer has been hell, but it’s lightened up these last few
days, which has been a blessing.
I’m
holding on and doing my best, as I always do. I want to send lots of love to my
best friend and my special someone. I want to give my family their best wishes
for a bright future. And for the last six months of my job, I’m hoping for lots
of fun and a lot less sickness.
