Wednesday, May 10, 2017

May: May 1- May 7

May, 2017
            Welcome to Golden Week, everyone!  This is a long holiday that basically gives me a full week off.  It’s a nice chance to refresh and to recover from getting settled and while some may travel, I want to use it to consolidate my gains, so to speak, but I will have stories from it appearing below, so…enjoy!
May 1, 2017
            My sleep cycle has been way off base lately, with me lying down to sleep at like 2 and not getting to sleep until like 3 or 4.  This means, I’ve been waking up later, lately.  Since that was the case, I decided to do something simple, but that I wanted to do for a while and head in to Sendai on Tuesday, for both sightseeing and some school business.  So, today, I headed to a nearby conveyer belt sushi place, which was good and I got good food for the price, and after that, I headed into the country side.  My boss basically gave me directions saying that while the rice isn’t ready for harvest yet, you get more rural the more you head in a certain direction.  I headed out that way.  I saw some of the sleepy rural Japan that I always loved, but would only see as I passed on trains.  A tiny temple that, I swear, I wish my house looked like with its great ergonomic design and lots of tatami.  It was right below a sleepy graveyard and I headed up it to get a shot of my city from a distance.  It was a nice peaceful day riding my bike, though since I had to cross a bridge with a large uphill climb, I quickly re-learned that with steep climbs, it’s often better to just push the bike instead of riding it, as your weight and gravity fight you the whole way.  As such, my legs are a bit sore from trying to ride up hill in this manner, but I fixed it on the return trip. 
On the way back, I passed the public bath house and decided to head inside.  While lacking some of the bells and whistles of the spa world, it is an experience that must be felt to be believed.  The cleanliness, the light headed nature you get after a good soak and how good ice cream or a meal is from their restaurant after said soak.  I may go back, but it is an intense feeling, so I can only do it sparingly.  Not a bad way to spend about 560 yen, though.  That said, I felt like a dumb foreigner because since I didn’t know the layout of the bath house I tried to put my backpack in the show box.  Yes, I am dumb foreigner.  Anyway, I figured it out, had a good soak, and while soaking I remembered something I wanted to do for a class.  See, I’ve created some basic conversation templates to help with greeting someone in my upper level classes and I figured, why not make a few more that are based on how the language will be used.  One for asking questions, like a tourist one, would be good, and perhaps I could modify them further.  It’s something I plan to work on when I return to school after Golden Week. After bath ice cream is lovely, however.  It really does help you to cool down, though I admit I was a bit woozy and staggery after my soak, so I had to take it slow and the ice cream helped me take a breather.  At the bath houses, they even have nap rooms for people sleepy after their soak.  It really is quite the experience.  My night will be a bit of frugal eating, taking out the trash, writing, and finishing up the game, Nioh, which was a cool little samurai-esque dark souls game.  Frustrating at times, I did enjoy it, but it dragged for a bit, so I’m ready to move on to something else.  Anyway, great title.
Hoping to correct my sleeping patterns tonight and tomorrow I will head into Sendai City, both for some sightseeing and for some business. Also, I took some pictures of my country side tour and may take more during golden week.  These will probably be featured on one of my bonus updates on the blog.
May 2, 2017
            What a day…I got up early because I knew I wanted to take the Sendai Loople bus which takes me around cultural sites in the city if I buy a one day pass.  Which I did.  I only visited three places because I had other business in the city, probably wise too since I am now super mega exhausted.  The bus was mostly crowded, so I was standing a lot today.  I visited the mausoleum of Date Masamune, the founder of the Sendai clan and it was a nice building, pictures to follow on the next weekend.  I also revisited Sendai Castle, which was now open for business, so I got to see the city from up high, enjoy cultural and historical locales, visit shrines, and get some green soy bean taiyaki.  Surprisingly good.  Also, the lady running the counter was very sweet.  I forgot my bus pass there and she ran to give it back to me once I realized I lost it.  So, I bought a coke from her because I was thirsty and the Japanese do not accept gifts well…by that I mean they either won’t accept it or will feel like they need to repay you which…kind of defeats the purpose of repaying the nice lady.
            I skipped all the museums today.  It’s nice to give yourself something to come back to another time, like with friends, plus I needed to do other things in the city.  I paid a visit to a smaller shrine after Sendai Castle, but I should note that, holy god, the stone stairs tore up my legs something fierce.  There were a lot of them and many of them were quite tall.  I was sweating all day.  I wish I’d borrowed a walking stick, because they let you do that at the mausoleum and return it on the honor system later. Once that was done, I just enjoyed the rest of the bus ride back to the station.  Sendai is known as the city of trees and has a lot of foliage.  Not like an elven city or anything, but it’s much livelier and full of life than Raleigh or Burlington.  It’s a pretty city.
            I had a burger today.  It’s…weird.  I mentioned it years ago, but it holds true.  Eating an American style hamburger in Japan is weird because it tastes…wrong?  I mean, not bad, but it doesn’t have the same flavor as an American burger.  It’s okay, mine had bacon, a soft boiled egg, and lettuce on it, but it didn’t gel as well as a Red Robin burger might.  Might try a Mcdonalds burger later this week to test.  Ugh…I spent so much money today. Okay not THAT much, but like 30-40 bucks for my tour and food?  I’m going to be keeping a budget once my vacation is over so…there.
            I had to get back to Sendai to look for materials for class.  I wanted to buy some cards games the students could play but which would still be proactive in helping their English studies.  Taboo was the first one to spring to mind.  I have a home made version in my cubby at school, but I wanted the real deal.  Sadly, no go. I walked my feet off through Sendai and checked the three stores it might be in.  I found some board games, but they were all in Japanese and were more symbol management, like Catan or fantasy card battle games, than English Training, so I eschewed buying them.  I may have to order it online.  First half of the day was really good, but after the tour, I was super tired and just dragged all the way home.  I did have an “ah-hah” moment when I got a bit lost and realized, oh hell, I have a cell phone with GPS.  Let’s use it.  I am dumb…sometimes, anyway.
            I’m going to recover tonight and might take an easy day tomorrow, as my other plans are to check a bazaar style store for card games on Thursday in the evening and check out some nearby Buddhist temples on Thursday in the morning, with a stop off for Mcdonalds before I go home. Friday, I want to head back to the country side.  I liked riding the bus today, however, I had such a sense of personal space, tranquility, and peace exploring the country side and the bathhouse after. It was wonderful.  I’ll skip lunch so I can get some soba at the bathhouse after a soak.  That’s the plan anyway.  We’ll see what comes of it.
May 3, 2017
            God…why so many sweets?!  The sweets in Japan don’t feel sickening like in the US, so it’s easy to get more than you need and just…I dunno, man.  I spent today recovering from my previous few trips.  I wanted to play Overwatch with friends, but I calculated time wrong so it’s actually tomorrow that I get a chance for that.  I did some gaming, I wrote for my book, and at around 5 or so, I went out shopping.  I checked out a lot of stores looking for board games, found none, but I did find some magnets which I could use for class, so looking forward to trying that.  I went grocery shopping today and got lots of frozen food, however a big problem is, as I mentioned, sweets.  I got melon bread, crepes, and some frozen ice cream.  I ALSO got vegetables, fruits, and some good fruit juice…can’t do strawberry milk every week.  Still on vacation, but doing more traveling tomorrow.
            Well…okay, so I bought a game a long while back that was the remake/port of my favorite game, Odin Sphere.  I bought it before I had a PS4 and brought it with me to Japan, but dragged my feet to start playing it because…well, it’s an emotional experience. And…I started playing tonight and…holy shit, guys…my god, this game is SOOOOOOOOO GOOD!  Not just that!  They MADE IT BETTER!  This isn’t a simple port.  I loved the original both for the great story and voice acting and for the simple, but deep gameplay.  They made it deeper, but also simplified it and gave it nice quality of life improvements, along with the overall improvement in the already gorgeous graphics(no lag/slowdown in this game anymore,) but MORE than that, they added new enemies, new attacks to existing enemies…Vanillaware, the company who made this, I think I love you.  This game made me cry with joy in the first ten minutes for how good it was.  I’ve almost never done that, save for like Final Fantasy 6 or so.  My previous favorite game ever.  The only thing I really want is someone to share it with.  Best friend, why aren’t you here?!  XD I kid, but seriously, this game makes me so happy.  I am happier than I have been in…well, the last time I felt this good was when I got the news I was hired for this job in Japan. So happy!!!
May 4, 2017
            Oh, god, so tired…I started my day playing Overwatch with friends.  I’m definitely rusty, but it was good fun talking with everyone again.  After that, I wanted to go on a temple tour and visit the local temples, just use my GPS and see them for myself.  However, that plan got a bit scrapped.  See, I visited one, and it was nice, however I went past the second one and started to see soil that looked a bit…sandy.  This is when I realize that Natori is actually pretty close to the ocean.  So, I made it my goal for the day to see the pacific ocean up close.  I biked for…god, how many kilometers?  At least 8 or 9 each way. I crossed the bay next to the ocean and got up close to the high walls used to blunt tsunamis and I saw a local shrine along the way, offering my respects and getting an omamori because why not.  I did finally get to the ocean.  It was a long trip, but the smell of the salty air, the feel of the sand underfoot, and the same ocean, as unchanged as ever, the ocean the entire world shares(Do not be pedantic with me, people, I’m being poetic,) its size reminded me of my own insignificance, but also of the connections shared by all us people.
            Having seen the beach, I headed back to Natori.  The ride was a bit long and I was drenched in sweat.  My butt was numb, but I made it back, stopped at a Mcdonalds for lunch(Good lord, Japanese Mcdonalds are so good,) and headed home.  Right now, all I want to do is rest.  My legs were sore from days and days of exercise already, but now they really hurt, my butt’s yelling at me, and I have no energy for much beyond a bit of gaming.  Going to rest for the rest of today and head out to the bath house tomorrow for a proper respite/end to my vacation.
May 5, 2017
            Ugh…tired.  I did a bit of light shopping today and bought a butt pillow for my sitting and some scented stuffs for my home.  I also found some tatami for sale, but I want to talk with my co-workers and get some advice on what I can buy to put under my bed, because I really miss sleeping under tatami. I almost headed into the countryside, but only did a short distance. I didn’t want to get too sweaty.  I’ll explore more later, especially since the bathhouse is on the way back.
            Speaking of the bathhouse, I headed in for a day of relaxing. I think I might have stayed in a bit too long though, as I’m light headed and sleepy today. I relaxed for a while, got some thinking done, hoping I remember it later since it was for my book, and then I got some lunch.  After a hot bath, most people want food or something to replace the nutrients sweat out or to fortify you against the light headedness.  So, I got some ramen, a cola float, and a bit of black sesame ice cream.  Black sesame is…weird.  It’s got a taste marginally like peanut butter, but it’s sharper and stronger and…ultimately, it’s not something I really want again.  Not bad, but…eh?  Since then, I’ve just been so tired, so I’m taking the rest of the day off to just rest.  I may not even need dinner, since I had a big lunch. I updated a small personal food and experiences journal I have while I was eating/waiting for my food. Seriously though, I am spending too much money.  It is vacation, but I am going to be keeping a stricter budget afterwards.
            I want to make two observations here, before I finish. The first is a strange disparity between modesty.  Japanese men, at least since I don’t know about women, will gladly go into bathes in the bathhouse naked, however when out of the water, like I read in previous books, they seem to want to protect their modesty with small towels.  I mean, cultural?  I don’t really understand the purpose, since nudity is common in the bathes.  I wonder why.
            Second observation is either about gaijin in general or just me.  It’s hard to say because I’ve actually had a similar experience stateside.  I tend to have people avoid me.  Not like hissing and making the cross sign avoiding me, but no one wants to sit next to me, in trains, bathes, whatever.  I’m used to it, as I’ve had this happen since I was a kid, but it runs a bit counter to the politeness prevalent in the rest of this country.  I guess maybe it just surrounds me?  I don’t know.  Figured it wise to make the observation before I either take a nap or forget about it.  The hot bathes made me light headed, so after I got home, I’ve just been laying down…
May 6, 2017
            Nothing much to report today.  I got up and played Overwatch with friends.  After that, I headed out to the pizza place my boss took me to when I first arrived.  I found it again by chance and really wanted pizza.  Granted, I paid more than I wanted to for it, but good god was it worth it.  The gentleman running the restaurant makes standard pizza, but also pizza with a cream base instead of a tomato base.  I had a pizza with bacon/ham and a kind of gravy base with cheese.  It was excellent.  I even got some vegetables today, haha.  It was a bit of a ride to get out there, I was on my bike for…a good 15-20 each way, but I enjoyed the exercise.  I tried a bath in my own tub.  While I have the space and enough hot water, it just wasn’t the same as the bathhouse so I think I’ll stick with showers for the foreseeable future. Strangely, after my bath, I got super sleepy and tired.  I wanted to do my journal entry and some writing, but I just had to crash from about 2-3:30.  Maybe I’ve pushed myself a bit hard with the exercise lately.  Not sure.  Anyway, tomorrow is my last day before I head back to school.  Excited to try some new teaching ideas I have, also worried because I really want to improve.  I did get in my writing today, however.  Gonna make a commitment to myself to try and do at least two writing days a week(more is okay too) and two editing days a week.  Let’s see how that turns out for me.
            Oh, also I heard from a friend of mine.  I sent out letters to those close to me and they finally arrived, so that was cool.  Sadly, I sent them out the day before I got internet, so…they probably seem a bit more melancholy than I am now.  Either way, it’s nice that they have something from me in Japan.  My golden week has been exhausting, but I really do love this country and this area.  So far, I’m having a great time and I hope I can stay for a while.
            Actually, short update.  One thing I forgot to mention is that while my passport is good for at least another 18 months, it might be an issue in 2019, if I am offered a chance to stay a second year.  So, I did some research on how to renew my passport from Japan and found a way.  It is a lot of paperwork from the consulate and I have to mail it all in, but I can make it work and I hope to do so once I hear news from my bosses.  If they want me, I’ll do it here, if not, I’ll do it when I get back to the US, because I will want to travel again.  Fingers crossed and hoping that I can do it here.  Really love being here and recent changes to the US have me worried about going back, both financially and in terms of morality and stress. On a lighter note, when I start back at school, I’m going to confirm with the other teachers that it’s okay to get small things mailed to the school in my name.  I can get most games I want in Japan, but the souls games are…not among them, sadly.  So, if I want to play Bloodborne or Dark Souls 3 in English, I need them mailed from the US.
May 7, 2017
            Not much to report today.  I got up a bit late, I’ve really been needing more sleep lately for some reason, and then I did a bit of shopping.  I bought Biohazard 4/ Resident Evil 4 because I love it and I want to play it this Halloween…though I might play it again sooner, since it is really fun.  It’s on the PS4 with Japanese menus and English dialogue, but I’ve played it enough so that shouldn’t be an issue.
            Anyway, I got lunch at the Mos Burger, which is like Japan’s answer to Mcdonalds.  It’s…weird.  Save for Mcdonalds, I haven’t found many places that actually nail the taste of an American burger.  The texture and contents of the Mos Burger is…different.  Not bad, but it feels a tad off.  Still, I might experiment with them since they’re close to my home.  I also had pouch ice cream today, in a pouch with a straw.  It’s amazingly good and I’m a bit bummed I haven’t seen it for sale in bulk at the store.  I think I’m going to lose weight from exercise here, but the Japanese sweets are addictive because they’re just sweet enough to be good, but seldom are they too sweet and make you feel sick and lethargic.  It’s my last day before I head back to work, so I’m taking it a bit easy.  I’m enjoying life here.  Tomorrow, I hope to enjoy getting back to routine.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Bonus Update: The Countryside tour

Okay, I have my blog entries ready for this, but Wednesdays are for regular updates and weekends are for bonus updates.  That said, time for some pictures.  I headed out into the rice fields and a little in the countryside during my Golden Week holiday and I've got some things to show.
Also, I was still figuring out my phone's camera during this week, so if any photos now or in the future look like crap, that's why.  Sorry.
 So, I rode my new bike into the countryside and felt a bit inspired.  We actually have a decent amount of farmland style areas out here and while it's not harvest time yet, I felt like I might want to show all of you
 We seriously do have a decent amount of farmable area.  This picture doesn't even show it all.  It stretches for a good while and some fields were full of water because some plants grow better that way.
 See those hills and mountains?  We're going up there.  At least for a ways.  Seriously though, being so close to this makes me have a bit more peace of mind.
 I found a small temple near a beautiful graveyard. It was abandoned, but I wouldn't mind a house like that.  It had Tatami inside and all the space I really wanted/needed.  I would like to live a bit farther from the city just for the ambiance even if it would be a bit more inconvenient.
 I climbed up the graveyard and decided to try and give a view of how I'd come and how far up I was.  See that blue speck?  That's my bike.
 See that city in the distance?  Yeah, that's where I live.  I rode a decent distance out and it's nice to know that if I ever need time to think and something to do, I can just ride on out here during the weekend. Since there is a bathhouse on the way home, won't matter if I get sweaty either.  I can refresh myself there.
 What I was not expecting were the barricades.  There was some minor construction and repairs along the roadside, so they blocked off a few places with the cutest, most darling little barricades.  Look at the cute little man!

Yep, the little man wasn't the only barricade, we also have onigiri samurai.  Is this going to be a habit?  Me looking for silly cute barricades?  Maybe.  Stay tuned.

More to come on Wednesday.  You can hear all about my holiday.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

April: April 15 - April 30

April 15, 2017
            Welp, like I said last night, sleeping troubles.  I was basically home bound most of today because I had to wait for the delivery men to bring my TV.  You buy something at a store and you can basically pay them to deliver it straight to your door, which is…awesome, for people like me without a car.  I had some trouble assembling the TV at first, but got it working fine and now I’m afraid to change it since all the options are in Japanese.  However, most importantly, I got it to connect to my PS4, set my PS4 to English and got to play DOOM!  It really is an awesome shooter and I was having a ton of fun.  Got a bit tired of sitting around though and went out to a used game store to check on their famicom stuffs.  Didn’t buy any famicom stuff, but I did buy something I can’t wait to show my best friend.  I also bought Nioh, which should work in English too.  Testing it out today or tomorrow.  So, PS4, TV, I feel better about life.  I am worried a bit about my spending.  I’ve spent about half my funds so far, but since I have a bank card ready and no more major purchases aside from a bicycle, I should be fine for another month or two at least.  Plus, I get paid at the end of April.  As you might expect, spending a lot on drinks.  Love Calpis, Lemon tea, and I found a place which sells Dr. Pepper.  So…games or drinks, what’s going to break the bank for me?  Place your bets now!!!
            Tested Nioh tonight.  ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!! ITWORKS!!!
            This adventure is actually going how I’d planned for once…kinda…Japanese PS4, Japanese games, English language support XD
April 18 2017
            Oh god…so tired.  I still don’t have internet, but at the very least, the contract is out of the way.  Weird thing is that if I get quarter of max speed, I can get internet in a week or so or a month for max speed and the permission of my land lord.  Which might not work.  So, I chose the easy plug option rather than waiting for them to construct and drill a hole into my apartment.  It was a weird day, with me trying to choose a phone I could use stateside and which I could pay for.  They wanted me to pay with a credit card…ugh…thankfully, after my first payment, I can pay from bank draft.  Progress being made.  However, due to the length of the contract process, I had lunch at 9am…and then dinner tonight at 10pm.  I am thrashed, man.  Hoping to have internet sooner rather than later, though.
            PS4 is going well, but it’s getting warmer here, so…now, I’m gonna have to start using my AC more.  Classes are going well, I’m starting to get a feel for my students’ levels and I’m planning some new activities once in a while that are getting decent results.  I still have a few who are just sleepy or loopy, but…it’s becoming easier.  I feel like I wanted to say more.  I’ve had more stress dreams and I need to get a proper cleaning schedule going.  I miss my family, but I’m…okay.  Really tired right now, so…gonna go to bed in a bit.  Relishing the minor internet that my phone gives me as I lay down.  Email is still awkward, so no go, but I have youtube…Team Four Star, how I’ve missed you.
            Actually, before I go to sleep, I need comment on today.  It felt like some of my most exhausting days in China, where I was up from about 8am until midnight.  I just want to be lazy and to complain and yet I KNOW the Japanese teachers who work at my school do this every day.  I mean…I am just amazed by them.  They teach, they clean, they act as receptionists and help dumb foreigners like me with ridiculous contracts and have got to work between 10-12 hour days…and they can still smile and be lovely people.  I don’t know where they get their energy, but whatever they’re on, I want some.  Seriously, they are amazing. I cannot complain…okay, well, I can, but it is a bit petty considering how much more they go through daily. One last piece of advice for foreign teachers.  Be humble.  You might think you’re hot shit, but chances are your co-workers do twice as much as you do without complaint and without any glory.  Appreciate them.
April 19, 2017
            Well, I am tired.  I managed to get into my writing a bit, but it’s not my best.  I can tell just from looking at the dialogue.  I need to review that.  Today, the wind was scary.  Like super duper scary.  I felt my home shaking.  It was like I was in an earthquake.  The whole day was like that and I can hear it howling now, as I type this. I was invited to an Izakaya, which is a place where you can get small, delicious bits of food, but it is mostly for drinking.  Still, it’s good to visit with my new team and I’m looking forward to it next week.
            Constantly amazed by how things are changing for me.  Classes that were hard last week are easier due to changes I’m making, but classes that were easy are harder now for…reasons?  Like I’ve had a pretty good week for elementary students, but not so hot for junior high and above.  Finding my stern voice again after so long without needing it and it is helping, but I need to amp it up again.  Once again, I am amazed at the energy of the Japanese teachers.  Though I will say the schedule is a bit tighter here than in my previous job.  Just looking at the schedule, there are times when I have some good down time, but when the day is going full on, I can be in class for almost three hours, then have 30 minutes to plan or get food, probably not both, and then have another three hours waiting.  It’s nothing I can’t handle and it does make the day go faster, thank god for regularity.  Let me tell you though, waking up at 5 am to hear and feel my apartment shaking from the wind and wondering if it’s time to pass on to the next life…bit stressful, hehe.  Things are going well.  I’m worrying less and less.  I just hope my performance matches up with my boss.  I like living here, so far.  I don’t want to lose this great opportunity.
            I also want to comment on a true Japanese ambassador experience I had.  There’s a great bento place I get lunch at 2-3 times a week and since I had time in between my afternoon and night classes, I headed down there.  My student and her dad were getting food to, so while I was waiting, I talked with them for about 4-5 minutes in Japanese.  While I know my language skills are still very lacking, being able to make yourself understood feels good and I imagine this is a feeling of pride similar to what my students have.  I admit to being a bit embarrassed, as I chose the wrong word and said my student was a bit clumsy, when she is actually really skilled.  I corrected myself and both father and daughter got a good laugh out of the dumb foreigner.  I’m glad they were good sports about it because I never like selling my students short.  Most of them are super hard workers and deserve praise for coming so far.
April 20, 2017
            Pretty sure at this point that I’m not going to be able to relax until I have like 6-8 months behind me.  I’m hitting my stride with teaching in this different format well, but my neuroses will follow me for a while yet.  I sent some letters home today and I hope they reach the US.  I also should comment that while some days are pretty chill, some days can be very hectic at the school as well.  I am guaranteed a 30 minute break in between classes as a minimum for food or what not, but today I had one class run a tad long, so I basically ran to the nearby bakery, had dinner there, which was…baked goods so carbs...good though…and ran back in about 15 minutes.  While the class load is pretty comparable to my other jobs, the amount of downtime once things ramp up and get started is much lower, so you need time management.  I’m doing well with it, but…it can be a bit stressful. 
Also, am I losing weight?  I never like to shoot myself in the foot with pre-emptive accusations and it has only been about a month, but…I am having to tighten my belt a bit.  Bad belt?  We’ll see.  Sadly, the mad wind from last night may have dashed my chances of seeing cherry blossoms, but I’ll check Sendai and see if any are there.
April 21, 2017
Well, right before I headed off to work I got a package delivered to me that basically contained a router that didn’t need to be plugged into the wall because of a new delivery system for wifi. It…works.  And it was hard not to binge internet and actually get ready for work.  But, of course, I did because that’s what a man of responsibility does.  Unlike some, I can’t just call out of work for my leisure, because that would really put undue burden on my co-workers and that’s…just dishonest.
Today was fine.  I am getting into the swing of things, I have a few students whose names I have down, but teaching is always a bit stressful, no matter how used to it you get.  Anyone who says its easy, no matter how skilled they are, is just being dishonest.
Once I got home, I let people know I had internet online and I’m looking forward to reconnecting with friends and family.  Binged on some videos I’d been missing out on and played some Gwent and Overwatch.  A part of me is sad, actually because while I know it’s not like camping, being without makes you both appreciate and adapt.  I am glad to have my videos and my friends and my online connections, but I doubt I’d appreciate it as much without the time in between.  That said, now I have to worry about staying up too late, as it’s very early in the morning as I write this, on the 22nd.  I had a lot to catch up on and people to catch up with.
April 22, 2017
Ugh.  Tired.  I went to bed too late and I woke up late as a result.  I had a few things I needed to do in Sendai, so I headed out late and got back around six hours later, with no bike, all walking…so….yeah.  I headed in to Sendai to pick up a spare set of sheets and pillows, so I have something to use while the others are washing, I checked out some hobby shops…you know, I feel significantly less into all the pop culture stuff lately for some reason.  I still like anime and Japanese culture and gaming, but I just feel…a bit less connected to it compared to when I was in college.  Also, I bought a bunch of stickers because we use those as prizes for students in class, so periodically, if we’re out shopping, teachers will look for some.  Any who, I got some Chashu Ramen, which is ramen broth so milky white with pork bone marrow and fat that it is amazing…but probably also fattening.  Not sure.  I ate it and then headed to an Ikea to pick up a lower table for my computer, which works well, save that it doesn’t like my mouse and traction is an issue.  Going to buy a mousepad tomorrow.  Ridiculous as it sounds, I hope the only ones I can find are not the breast mouse pads…because yes, those are pretty popular in the game stores near my home.  I probably can though, so no worries.  I also bought some Dr. Pepper at a Maruya, and some takoyaki.  Also, a four foot tall lamp.  I was carrying most of this in my backpack, but the table and the lamp, as well as my takoyaki were in my hands.  I must have looked quite a sight, heading down the road. I got lost once or twice and my body is aching now for almost four hours of walking today, but lots of things are coming together here, so I can be glad to get some things out of the way. 
April 25, 2017
So, I’ve been updating my blog and trying to contact family for a face to face meeting.  I’ve had more than a few hurdles which have been annoying to deal with, however that does make me realize I haven’t really been complaining enough, since…apparently, that’s what I do.  Let me give a brief rundown of some surprising shortcomings of my home.  Not sure if they can be addressed, but…we’ll see.  First off, it is very small.  The arched ceiling does give my main room some vertical space, but I am stacking things on top of the toaster oven which is on top of the microwave for lack of space in my kitchen.  My fridge holds a few fruits/vegetables and my drinks.  That’s all.  The bathroom is a weird one, guys.  Yes, it’s really small, but it has a drain in the floor and the shower hose is connected to the sink. This means water can and will spill onto the floor and it’s also got the side effect of making it hard to nigh impossible to actually get water at a decent temperature.  It’s either close to boiling or close to freezing.  It takes really fine tuning because you don’t have one knob to go hot or cold, you have to balance two knobs.  Also, my facets drip.  All of them.  The walls here are thin, so that means I can hear the street and the street can probably hear me.  The wind is crazy and since the buildings are built to be flexible, they rock and shake when it gets strong. The main room has climate control, but this means expect the bathroom and the kitchen to be either freezing or boiling due to the thin walls and lack of insulation.  Finally, the gas worries me.  The gas I used for cooking always creates a small gout of flame when I turn it on and I’ve never been wild about fire I can’t control, so…yeah, maybe I won’t do much cooking this year.  Not sure.
Alright, alright, complaints aside, I do still like the place.  I’ve made it much homier and gotten the furniture and setup I need to be pretty happy.  And I am.  Natori has a lot of conveniences that I appreciate, such as game and hardware stores for my computing and gaming needs as well as some good grocery stores, second hand shops, and restaurants.  It’s nice riding my bike and walking places.  At times exhausting because if it’s a long trip, I can be lost, sweating, and tired, but I make do.  It’s…a nice place to be. The important thing is that we can find issues with anything, but if you’re still happy, they’re less important.  And for the most part I am.  School can be stressful, but I make do and I’m getting better(I think), so it’s easier to manage.  Also, we have a big holiday coming up, so I have time to sort things out, like getting a bike, heading to the local public baths, and just relaxing and getting my writing back on track.  Probably won’t travel outside of Sendai though.  Some people made suggestions, like Mount Zao or Mutsushima, but I checked the costs of Ryokans and…maybe when I have guests.  Ryokan rooms are usually for four people at a time and pretty expensive.  After an expensive trip and me buying stuff and going through my savings, I’d rather not compound the issue with an expensive trip to an inn for a night or two.  Maybe when I’m leaving or have more money.
April 27, 2017
So…that happened.  I overslept today.  Don’t worry, I wasn’t late for work, however it’s weird, I’ve had to live by such a regimented schedule for so long…I must have needed the sleep.  For those who don’t know, genuinely, I tend to oversleep 1-3 days a year, however it’s unclear when those days will be.  My alarm went off at 9 and I woke up at 11:30. So, needless to say, no writing or editing today, I had time to get myself ready for work and to get food.  Sadly, Thursdays are my longest, hardest days.  So, bit tired.  Still, not the worst thing to happen. Holiday in a few days, so I can get rest, get a new bike, and get some different kinds of food.
April 28, 2017
I had another weird dream last night.  They’ve been getting less common, but I still have stress dreams from time to time and…it’s annoying.
I’m getting new ideas for teaching and getting more comfortable with my role to a degree, however one of the biggest problems is knowing what the students know, especially since documentation doesn’t always carry over from one level of training to another.  So, sometimes my students know things I already want to teach them and…sometimes they don’t.  I’m hoping to find some fun little games for the older students like taboo or apples to apples during the holiday, since I’ve been told that a book store is in Sendai where I can find stuff like that.
Either way, since this is my last work day before a long holiday, I feel I should give my initial impressions of Sendai and Natori, which I hesitated to do after getting off the plane.  It’s…different from what I was expecting. The wind here is quite strong and can shake my apartment like it’s an earthquake.  The coolness of the weather agrees with me so far. Natori seems to be a place of mild coolness as it’s been very cool, even into the end of April and I like the location, as I’m in a convenient place for shopping and food.  I’ve even found favorites of mine like takoyaki and ramen.  It’s a nice place to live, despite the complaints and minor inconveniences I’ve endured. I really like biking and walking.  Despite it being a bit inconvenient to get to certain places without a car, I like biking, it’s very fulfilling and good exercise.  There’s a good second hand store and tons of game stores near my home, so I always have something I can buy, do, or whatever.  I still need to buy a bike and set up a budget for myself to make sure I know how much I spend monthly.  I like the trains and I don’t miss driving a car.  I don’t miss a lot of things really, well, save for burgers.  The convenience stores have great sausages and hot dogs, but…not so great burgers.  Need to find me a Mcdonalds, because Japanese Mcdonalds are great. My coworkers are quite nice and have been a great help to me.  I feel nervous, still, but they have been very polite and helped me to adjust to the curve, though I need to stop comparing myself to teachers past and present, as it’s not healthy for me. I am doing my own thing as a teacher, after all.
The only thing stopping me from saying Natori is the best place I’ve lived is probably nostalgia, as I really do miss Osaka and the location of Hirakata shi(old memories, dude,) and because the people I love aren’t here.  If my best friend moved here as my roommate or neighbor, hands down this would be the best place I’ve ever been and I’d never want to leave.  So far, I’m hoping I can make this last at least two years, but hopefully more.  The school work is exhausting, but the food is good, the location is convenient, I feel good about getting around, and for once the weather suits me.  Now…if I can just contact my friends and family back home…hmmmmmm…stay tuned.
April 29, 2017
Welp, I talked with my parents today.  It was nice, but I feel that given the length of time I was gone, it was…a bit short.  I expected more questions, I guess or more something.  We did talk for an hour, yet still…either way, I had to get a nap after because my sleep schedule is starting to go off the rails.  I need to rein it in.  I played games until it was time to meet my fellow teachers for an izakaya trip to get to know each other better.  Izakayas are places where you can drink and get lots of cheap finger food to help with the drinking.  Not all of us drank, but those who did were surprising in their skill.  We shared a lot during the evening, but the last 10 minutes is what I remember most.  We ended up swapping stories about teaching, but I was taking mental notes on how to improve my classes.  Things like back to the class where the whole class can see a word, but one student can’t and the other students need to show what it is or they need to explain without saying the word.  Yes/No games that involve running to another side of the class.  Using realia to help with the class in choosing a destination or an activity.  It’s stuff that I knew about from my training in China and stuff I did use at times with my students in China, however…I’m a bit rusty.  So, it’s like a part of my memory was jogged and I hope to be able to use it to improve my classes.  I need to cut down on my TTT, teacher talking time, which I got down pretty low in China, but have since let rise a bit more than I want.  It’s stuff worth remembering.  I won’t share any other details about the izakaya journey however.  Remember, no personal details, no hurt feelings, nothing of the sort.  It was an interesting night and I was able to cut lose for a bit, sharing ideas about anime, travel, and other such things.
April 30, 2017

Today…was an odd day in some aspects.  I made a trip down to the Aeon mall to buy a bike.  I finally found one I wanted at a nearby Asahi store and paid about 150 dollars for it.  It’s got all the stuff my work bike had and yet I was told to not listen to music on it.  Yet, I’ve seen dozens of other people doing just that.  I also, fun fact, read that you’re not supposed to ride your bikes on the sidewalk.  I was like whaaaaaaaaaaat?  Also, everyone does that too.  Either way, I got a bike.  I was planning to get sandals and some Mcdonalds at the Aeon mall because Japanese Mcdonalds is pretty awesome.  However, the lines were crazy.  Just like with China, I’m amazed at how long the lines can get for simple restaurants.  I didn’t buy anything because I found I really didn’t need anything at the mall. I was also getting a bit antsy due to the crowds, so I headed to the Yamaya, picked up some American sodas and Cheetos, and got some KFC on the way home, which is still pretty good. I spent the rest of my day playing games, which was a nice relaxing day.  I saw Samurai Jack and some Berserk, which made me feel good about life, and then we move onto the main feature of my night.  I got to skype with my best friend. No personal details, but I will say, a part of me felt like a grinning jackass for the hour we talked.  It was really good to see her again and I was having a fun time talking with her…admittedly, I also felt like it was word vomit because I wanted to tell her all of the things.  I wonder if I said the right things though.  We both miss each other, but…felt really good to see her.  Now, if I can just get the Overwatch team together for some weekend play, things will just be wonderful.

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Bonus post: April, Apartment Photos

Bonus Post: Apartment Photos
I promised people online that I would make a bonus post on Sunday, since I'm trying to catch up with the end of April.  Either way, these are some photos of what my apartment looks like with a few comments added on.  I haven't found much that strikes me for photo material, but if I do, I'll post it here on the weekends as a bonus post.
 This is my basic bed area.  My setup had to change so that my head was near the wall that's not connected to another apartment.  I sleep on the floor on a nice futon and the couch, which I don't use much, is still a nice addition.  A carry over from previous tenants.  The wall scroll I bought at a great second hand shop for cheap.  I have a weakness for Sumi-e
 From my bed, I have a good place to sit or lie down.  It's the nerve center of my home.  Here, you can see my first major purchases, being my TV and PS4.  Good investments.  My computer is here as well.  I have more cords than I like, but this apartment only has two outlets and one is next to my head, so...I have to make due.  Behind the TV is a closet for clothes and other storage. I also have a picture of me and my god mom by the TV.  I brought a few pictures, but I only had one standing frame.  The rest are on the fridge with magnets.  Sadly, I don't have a physical picture of my best friend...something to remedy in the future.
 I also use the loft for storage. While you can't see it in the other pictures, I also brought along perlers and used them to make the place more homey.  It's nice having the Black Waltz watch over me.  Also, that is my PS4 box peaking out over the rim of the loft.  I didn't want to sleep up there due to how hard it would be to relax with my laptop there, since I like to have something on when I sleep, and if I wanted to use the bathroom, and I have had to, it would be a pain to climb down and up each time.  It's a room that, while small, has some good verticality to it. What you kind of can't see is the kerosene heater under the ladder.  I doubt I will use it, as gas bugs me, but it's there if I start to freeze.
 My home is super small.  The sink, stove, what little storage space I have, fridge, microwave, and washer are all crammed into about 10 feed on the left.  I also have my trash, which is tiered, and you can see my door, mailbox, slippers, and trash I needed to take out when this was taken.  It's pretty small outside my main room.
This is my bathroom.  Really really small.  I have a toilet, sink, and shower, but if you look close you can see the sink and shower are connected, so...yeah, even less space that it looks.  No storage space either, hence everything resting on the toilet's water tank.  It's a bit frustrating.  Also, since the shower is so close and has so little protection, there is a drain in the floor.

This setup has carried me so far, with the only additions being a standing lamp near my bed and TV for less light than the bright luminescence of the overhead one and a new table for my laptop, since I wanted to use the other one to hold my daily stuffs, like my keys and wallet close to the door so I could be ready when I leave.  Anyway, if I take any more photos, I'll have some more bonus posts like this.  Till then, see you.

Saturday, April 29, 2017

April: April 5 - April 14

April 5, 2017
            Today, I headed out to an internet café to speak with my family via email and facebook.  It was more trouble than I thought, since I had to get a membership card, however it all worked out in the end and I got an hour and a half of precious internet.  Pity it was spent looking over mobile carriers in Japan to try and find who to go with.  Thinking I have to go with Softbank if I want facetime and to video call my best friend.  Whatever…it’s only money.  I got ramen afterwards, like I said I would, and went grocery shopping.  Cooking is still a bit intimidating for me, since I’m in survival mode, so I picked up some drinks, some ready made food for tonight’s dinner, and some small stuff I can cook without any issues.  Probably tomorrow’s lunch.  Japanese grocery stores blow American stores out of the water with prepared food that is cheap ready to eat, and of startling variety, like tempura, spaghetti and tonkatsu.  In many ways, it’s a wonderland, however I was low on time, so I picked up only some basics.
            One thing I will say is I am sick of the computers here because the space bar is super duper tiny and I’m not used to typing with computers like that.  Also, because of the use of Japanese characters, I have to caps lock my words to not use hiragana when using a Japanese computer and the punctuation symbols are in weird places.  There is no @ and apostrophes are lost to me here.  I’m…mostly sticking to this computer for my serious typing because it’s what I’m comfortable with.
            Keeping this short since I just got in from work and am basically dead on my feet.  I feel a bit frustrated because while I have the experience, building confidence takes time and since this is a different kind of curriculum to what I did before, I have to learn new habits, unlearn old habits, and not re-learn bad habits.  The kids are balls of energy and I need to try and match their level, to make them laugh, be engaged, but also to learn.  It will be an adjustment period, since I’ve taught a few kids, but I’m mostly used to adults.  Still, a lot of the same rules apply.  My boss has been good about all this and I’ve learned while watching him teach as well as taken criticism gracefully.  Better than my boss in China, I’ll say that much. I feel jealous of those who are already used to it, but not maliciously so.  I want to be better is all. I know, however, that it will take time.  I have to consign myself to that and just make peace with it, because as neurotic as I can be at the best of times, it’s worse when under stress…and right now, the most important thing for me is getting into the swing of the new schedule, which my body is still getting used to, and surviving until internet.  That internet café provided me with a lot of relief, but I can’t do it every day.  Ten dollars for an hour and a half of internet is just too much. Yes, that was the actual cost.  Once I’ve got my footing and once I’ve had time to adjust, I know all this will come.  I adapt.  I survive.  I endure.  It’s a trait I inherited from my father and my mother.  And one I’m quite proud of.
April 6, 2017
            Not so much to report today.  I’ve been wanting more and more sleep, probably due to me being run a bit ragged getting setup over the last week and my general lack of sleep before coming to Japan.  I got a bit paranoid about my apartment being unlocked so I used my only break of the day to head home and check…thankfully, I was wrong.  Turns out I found my mail box…full of the last teacher’s soggy, out of date mail.  Charming.  Into the burn pile it goes.  And no, I’m not joking.  Trash is divided to an almost obsessive degree here.  We got burnable, plastic, bottles, heavy paper, cardboard, milk cartons(yes really,) all of which need to be separated and bagged in different groups.  Ugh…it’s a pain.  I got a taste of what will soon be the norm.  True, four and a half hours isn’t as bad as in China, but it’s in a big clump that worries me.  Still, I’ve done six hours at a time, so I can handle most things.  Mostly, I’m just tired.  I will say I got my boss to show me how to do a few things today and each time it’s like watching a mix between a drill sergeant and a magician.  He can hold a class of children in the palm of his hand, keep their interests up, and get them to excel.  It’s…like a kind of magic.  Working on that myself.  Some classes are better than others, but at least I can get a few more laughs and engagement at times.  Some days, you do just have to slog through and hold people’s hands though.  It’s just the nature of the work.  Still no residence card, which means…no internet.  Good god…it’ll get sorted out eventually, but still…frustrating to a huge degree.  Also, I have work on Saturday, so my recovery time is again limited.  True, it’s only for a short period, but since I met my boss last Saturday, I’ve been moving at light speed to get things sorted out.  Okay, not light speed.  It’s all manageable, but the first few weeks are always rough as I have to get the paperwork sorted out.  Still hoping it will all be over before the end of next week.
April 7, 2017
            I’m getting there, as far as this new teaching style goes.  The problem is that neuroses die hard.  When I taught adults, I knew what I was doing from over two years of experience.  Now, I’m new, so I have the same problem I had when I was in China.  That lingering fear that I’m going to be fired for not meeting my employer’s desires.  Ironically, my boss, who’s a great guy if he’s reading this(I kid.  My bosses are great all around.) told me stories about how other teachers, not from this school but in general, tend to screw up more as people than as teachers.  Since I’m on the straight and narrow, as long as I take my criticism gracefully and strive to improve, like I did in China, I should be fine.  Still, there’s no telling what can happen.  I might just have a bunch of classes who hate me, so…well, we’ll see.  It’s a bit depressing to know that this awaits me at any job I go to from here on, because twice is a pattern…I don’t like the feeling of not knowing if I can succeed.  Logically, I can.  Done it before, I can do it again.  But that stress and fear that you’ll just disappoint and fail…it follows you.  Still, beats looking for work.  That’s REALLY depressing.  Once I get my legs, I’m sure things’ll be fine.  I’m still trying to adjust, after all.  After this week ends, I’ll probably space out entries a bit more.  The worst of the depression has passed, now I’m just moving into frustration from lack of internet.  Especially when I hit a brick wall with a game.  Dammit, Dragon Quest…Anyway, enjoying life a bit more in terms of work and food, regularity helps, and adjusting.  Hopefully, I can get the last stuff I need settled soon, like my bank account, internet, and the like.
April 8, 2017
            So tired.  Did some exploring and road to the Aeon mall and back for some groceries and takoyaki/taiyaki.  Then I went to the internet café again to contact family and get some much needed data.  Data on what it would be to buy a PS4 and TV here, as well as to get through Dragon Quest 7, which is pissing me off with how cryptic the designers made it.  And again, it could be a month or longer before I have internet.  After that, I had to attend a party at work.  It was a party for older students and alums.  While fun, I was on my feet for five hours after two separate bike trips and I ate too much, leaving me with a wicked stomach ache.  I admit, I’m less than enchanted with my situations.  I started moving on April 1st and have been running full tilt till today.  It’s past midnight now and god willing, I will just rest and finally get around to decorating my house in the morning.  I just want some time to consolidate everything.  That’s all.  My legs hurt.  My feet hurt.  My stomach hurts.  So, now I’m going to lie down.
April 9, 2017
            Taking an easy day today.  Not going out, just going to rest and decorate the house.  I’ve had some thoughts I wanted to share lately.  First, whenever someone says, “It could be worse,” or wants to make light of your situation…a person can do that because it’s their situation, but as I’ve told my Chinese students, it’s often a bad idea for another person to say, “Don’t worry,” as that makes someone else’s fears and concerns seem less valid.  I’ve seen this a lot, both in person and online and it frustrates me a lot.  My situation isn’t terrible, but it’s not good either, since I’m still cut off from people I love and access to the internet at large.
            Next thought.  I really hate modded cars.  The walls of my home are very thin and I can hear regular cars outside when they pass by, so modded cars who sound like they’re spitting fire or grinding a pig into dust between their gears are especially frustrating when I’m trying to sleep. I understand buying a big car or an expensive car, but do you have so little to do that you must make a car which disturbs others just to show off how much money or whatever you have?  Really?
            Final thought.  I had a strange dream this morning.  It was where I still had classes tomorrow, but I was in the US with my family.  All I could think about was scrambling to try and get back to Japan and the sadness I had for giving up what I have now and for how far I’ve come.  True, it could mean I cling a bit too much to the moment, but I tend to think these kinds of ideas stem from an idea that I really do want to be here.  As hard and as worrying as some of what I do is, I do enjoy it and the schedule may be awkward, but I’ve been getting good sleep for the first time in a long while.  I don’t want to give that up. I’m not used to stress based dreams, actually, they don’t happen very often for me.  As such, I’m not sure what to make of this one.
            Either way, random thoughts over.  I am going to shower and consolidate my household.  Take care of the trash needing to be separated, decorate, wash clothes, etc.  And then I can lie down for an early night.  I have lots planned for next week.
            Ugh…Dragon Quest 7, you have a lot of problems and it took me far too long to finish you…60 hours…ugh…felt like 120. I seriously thought of 100 ways the game could have been improved and streamlined in the last two days alone.  I’m grateful my best friend gave it to me though.  Kept me busy during the depressing times here while I was adjusting to Japan.  I’m finally done, but I do have just…one…question.  Why is it that even after reviving the four spirits of the elements, saving the world and killing THE DEVIL HIMSELF, people still treat me like a shmuck and chastise me for sleeping late or supposedly slacking off.  I just saved the entire planet!  Cut me some slack!
April 10, 2017
            First night without too much sleep.  I think I slept too much yesterday to make up for a previous deficit, but…whatever.  So…I bought a TV today.  It’s getting delivered on Saturday.  Mixed feelings here.  One of the things I promised myself here in Japan was to not have a miserable gaming experience, meaning I need a TV and PS4.  I just feel mixed because I still don’t have my bank card, so this is basically still coming out of my savings from the states.  Ugh.  Either way, I saw the TVs and…when my dad and I bought me one after high school you got either CRT or LCD.  We bought a nice, big CRT for about 180 dollars.  These days, you pick size, but also do you want usb, lan, hdd connections, do you want it to have integrated youtube or Netflix?  I…just feel really disconnected from these kinds of TV sales.  I just want a TV. A TV to play games on.  Anyway, I bought a 40 inch TV for about 370 dollars, including delivery.  No real bells and whistles. I feel like I’m a bit misinformed about prices, but I feel like I spent more than I should for a tv of that size.  Yes, it is flat screen and it has hdmi connectors for a PS4, but…eh, whatever.  Worry about it later.  For now, I just want to relax and game…once my TV arrives.  Actually, getting ready for work as I write this.  First week with my boss being back in the States, so…I need to show my stuff.  Got a few ideas for improving my classes.  We’ll see how it pans out.
            Welp, back from classes.  Still having trouble with my elementary classes.  I try to make it fun and be funny and charming, but also teach good grammar points and the students only care about the games.  Not surprising, I guess, but…discouraging.  The junior high and high school classes are better.  I have a bit more charisma and am able to joke a bit and I’ve tried to create some templates that help out a lot.  It’s modular and while I need to make it prettier and more streamlined, it’s something I can give to the students to have them practice with each other and create their own language…and it kinda works.  I so hope this keeps working out.  Today was a trial run and now I want to see how well it works with tomorrow’s lessons.  Also, I inexplicably forgot how to spell tomorrow today…no, really…it was weeeeeeeeeeeird.  Still love teaching kinder age classes.  The 4-5 year olds can be easily distracted, but they’re more willing to be silly, do charades and games, and practice with the flash cards.  They are also so bloody cute.  Wish I had more of the kinder classes, honestly.  Love my kinder and junior high to adult classes.
April 12, 2017
            It was rainy yesterday and so windy today that I almost got pushed off my bike.  It’s getting closer to rainy/windy season.  I bought a game today for the PS4 that should have English support…we’ll see.  If it works, I know I can play some Japanese games in English, but I won’t know until I get my TV on Saturday.  I plan to buy a PS4 tomorrow.  It’s a bit worrisome.  The phrase, what if you fail, is always in the back of my mind.  I put a lot of money into this venture, after all and while I will get paid soon…it’s concerning if things go south.  Fortunately, I have a strong constitution like my father.  I don’t let fear get in the way of doing what needs to be done.  I promised myself this time I wouldn’t be timid and wait for things to improve or just scrape by like I did in China.  I’m going to enjoy myself here and a PS4 is a good way to pass time until I eventually get my internet connected.
            On an unrelated note, I tried KFC here today.  Good stuff, similar to China, with less focus on the fatty breaded chicken.  It’s still there, but you have more meat and less breading.  Better than the US by far.  Still, I need to adjust to size proportions.  A small is almost always enough.  I don’t need a large.
April 13, 2017
            Welp, I’ve bought a PS4.  Now, if only the worrying would stop.  I did my research and I should be able to switch the language of the system itself and several games to English, for my personal enjoyment.  I bought Doom which should have full English Support, but I can’t help but worry I dropped 300 dollars on the PS4 and 400 dollars on the TV for…nothing.  It will probably work out, but one way or another, the die is cast.
            Frustrating side note.  I’ve survived for almost a year and a half with six hours a night’s sleep and a nap later in the day, but now that I’m in Japan, I’m wanting more and more sleep…like today, I lounged about in bed for almost 10 hours from when I went to sleep.  It’s weird…I’m not used to getting lots of sleep nor needing or wanting more after getting said large amount of sleep.  Also, I keep waking up at weird hours, so maybe I’m not getting enough REM sleep, I dunno.  Also, I had to move my entire room around last night because the walls here are so damn thin.  I could hear a tv or game on the other side of the wall as I was laying down to sleep, so now my bed is against the corner where there is nothing, just outside.  I think this actually makes it colder, but…well, frustrating or not, this is the reality of having to sleep here.  Hopefully I can get Doom up and running on Saturday, when my TV is set for delivery.
            Finally got my resident card in the mail.  Tomorrow, I am going to try and get my bank information set up, get my working cell phone, and get internet set up for set up.  Fingers crossed.  In other news, one of my students bragged on me to one of the other teachers, saying she liked my classes.  It’s heartening.  It really is.  I have a better rapport with the older students who I’ve been trying to start up a casual conversation practice as part of our routine.  I’m doing okay with the kinder classes, but I still need to get my footing with the elementary levels.  I’m scared that despite my efforts to improve, I’ll come up short.  Still, no one knows my faults like me and I want to improve so…all I can do is use the resources available to me and try to do the best I can.  I need to remember this is a process.  I have experience teaching adults, so that’s why the older students are easier to engage with.  I still need to adapt to teaching the youngsters.  As for the really young kids, it’s a lot like being with my niece.  Their energy is infectious, and with the right exercises, you can match or even exceed their own(exceeding is uncommon though.  The kids are wired.)
            Fun fact.  I bought bacon carbonera and squid at a convenience store for dinner tonight.  Surprisingly the squid was poor(because it’s Japan, even the convenience stores have great food.) Unsurprisingly, the carbonera was amazing(because in Japan, even the convenience stores have great food.)
April 14, 2017
            Second week over.  It’s been up and down, honestly.  Some classes have gone really well and some have been a struggle.  Either way, I am trying to improve.  Need to work on controlling the unruly better and engaging my students in different ways, as I feel I don’t have enough variety in my activities. 
Today, I got my bank account set up, which was nice.  Unfortunately, it took so long that I didn’t get time to set up my internet today, so…it will have to be next week.  I could be angry, but why bother?  It’s not as if that will make it better.  At this point, just taking things in stride. I felt a bit sorry for the banker.  He was a nice fellow, but seemed so nervous and we had to redo a few things because of my crazy name and the rules of Japanese banking.  But it was finished in the end and I finally have a way to get paid.
What I am unsatisfied with are my dreams.  I’ve had far too many stress related dreams lately.  Dreams of being fired or late to class or something like that where I wake up but it was so vivid that it was terrifying.  It’s not often I have these and yet so many have hit me since arriving.  The night of the 14th, since today is the 15th, was the first night I had real trouble sleeping, as well.  Not sure if it was due to the heat, as it was a much warmer night, or what, but…frustrating.  I should also touch on the fact that when I woke up stateside, my hair might be disheveled, but nothing a quick brush down couldn’t fix.  Every morning I wake up here, I look like a DBZ character with my hair sticking out at impossible angles.  I have no idea why.

I did one set of writing since arriving in Japan, but I haven’t had the time or energy for it since then, which is depressing.  Once I get all the paperwork done with, I want to go back to writing.  It’s not as if I need to go out and explore or go out and get food or whatever, every day.  Some mornings, I can just wake up and write…at least, I hope.  I miss my stories.  I miss writing.  I need to get back into the habit.