October 27 -November 2, 2017

October 27 – October 28, 2017

Running low on energy, so not sure how much of this I can get out.  Friday was…challenging.  I had to ship out all my gifts to people.  Good news is, I’ve already gotten confirmation that my friends have them, which is nice.  I hope they enjoy them.  I’ve been run ragged by this 6 day work week.  I couldn’t sleep much on Friday night, so I went into work functionally dead on Saturday.  Friday was fine, I suppose, but…ugh, Saturday.  I was so tired, but I made a new activity to help with preposition usage and explaining the difference of at/in with locations.  It was rewarding to see the light bulbs tick and the laughs come out, though one class gave me a lot of trouble.  I gave away a lot of my candy was well, to share the joy with others.  The last batch I gave was to the Yakiniku man, who…may think I’m in a gift war with him, because the last time I was there, he gave me free, juicy grapes and this time, a free orange.  I dunno…anyway, I am functionally whipped.  I can barely sit up to write this, so I’ll cut it short by saying I got to talk with an old friend from China who I deeply care for and respect.  She’s had it rough, but I think just knowing that I’m here has been a help and vice versa.  We get on really well and it was nice hearing from her, but because of my workload, I was doing my weekly report for my boss while we were talking, which I told her about and she was okay with, but…after that, I pretty much ran out of energy. I am literally falling into my pillow sideways as I write this, so cutting it off here.  The week is over, thank god.  Gifts have been sent out, it was a tedious, hot, sweaty affair I would have utterly failed at without the help of the wonderful postal lady, who put up with my crap. Finally, it’s almost time to get back to a regular schedule.  Argle flargle blargle, night everyone.

October 29, 2017

Today was weird.  It was raining hard and I talked with my family, afterwards, I got air for my bike’s tires, I got a pizza at Ionia, which is well worth the trip…I feel so rewarded there and I get a salad and a pizza for a great price.  Also, I bought some more soda and chips, because I have a problem, and then I rested.  I need to do my writing tomorrow…I put it off because I talked with an old student of mine.  Like a lot of us, she’s going through tough times and I did my best to pep talk her.  I hate it when good…nay, great people are sad, so I like to rise to the occasion and help.  Or, I hope I help.  She’s a good person and I hope she can find happiness.  I hope I can find happiness as well.

October 30, 2017

Took most of today to just rest.  The wind outside howled fiercely and when I did go out, it was blisteringly cold.  My kind of weather.  That said, it was a bit difficult to ride my bike in the wind.  Doing a bit of writing, but it’s slow going after my breaks.  The most important thing is that I keep it up, I suppose.  I also bought groceries and the local convenient store and let me tell you, Japan loves its raffles.  Today, because I paid a certain amount, I got to stick my hand in the mystery box four times.  I won a bottle of tea and a bottle of orange juice.  It was gratifying to be rewarded for my patronage, but also a bit odd.  I’m not used to going into those games of chance outside of video games.  And even there, I don’t really care for them. Anyway, end of the month is tomorrow.  Hopefully it brings good things.

October 31, 2017

Surprise, surprise…it’s a Tuesday…that means everything is awful forever.  Also, we’re prepping the kids for Eiken interviews and that adds to my already cramped workload schedule, since I need to talk with the other teachers to confirm what I’ll be teaching in this coming month.  Good lord…so tiring and frustrating and even those taking the tests don’t want to do the practice, so…yeah, it’s a grind.

Gwent released a new patch today and many of my concerns were…totally ignored.  Of course.  I gave them a bit of money for the starter pack because, hell, I’ve spent so much time on this I may as well support the company a bit.  I didn’t get much sleep due to my experimenting with a few new tricks.  I have so much more experimentation to do.

November, 2017

November 1, 2017

Writing these is getting harder.  I’m getting more tired and stressed, but really, I just want to use my time for other things these days.  I made a commitment to family and friends to keep this up so they can know I’m doing okay, but at times, it is a bit much.  Like today, where we had to take down Halloween stuffs and I had an early class and I needed to get info for future classes, so my time to prep was basically zero…thankfully, my long dinner period allowed me to play catchup, but…so frustrating…so tiring.  I’m…really burnt out and it’s only the second day of this week.  Need to get more shaving material at the store and I need to get a hair cut.  I also need to, starting next week, get my butt moving with the plan to send my passport for renewal at the consulate in Sapporo. So much to do, so little time.

I did get a Jules Vernes-esque post card from a dear friend and that lifted my spirits a bit.  It’s nice to know I have people who care about me and miss me.

November 2, 2017

Sigh…so tired.  I’m trying to really hold it together, but we have too much going on this month, me especially…I need to get my stuff together.  I want to do so much but I have no bloody time…no time to do what I want to do planning wise in the school.  I have to run to keep up and it’s exhausting.  I’m behind with these as well, the fact that I’m typing this about 15 minutes before bed at like 1:45 should show that.  The day is done.  And I have two more left.  I’m hoping I can get a bath house visit and maybe…window shop for a sofa because…because.  I miss my futon sofa.  I gave my futon and my coffee table to a dear friend and I miss them.  I miss them so much.  I miss my friends.  I’m not lonely, I just want more…stability in my life.  More time to…enjoy life, I guess. I feel I don’t have enough of that off the weekends.  Anyway, those are the thoughts that I have right now after a long day with two more ahead of me.  So, that’s all.  I’m…gonna go now.  Put this up on the blog.  See you.