November 10, 2017
You know…this has been a
few weeks of trial. Just because I am
melodramatic, don’t get the idea that I’ve been blowing smoke up people’s
asses. I am tired, frustrated, and not
feeling very good right now. And it
keeps getting worse. Work has become
very difficult, though I hope the workload will calm itself after
tomorrow. Likewise, I found a rather
large number of bills tucked away out of sight in my mail box alongside rain
damaged junk…fun times. I could pay two
of them, fine, but the third one is expired, so now I need to find out how I’m
going to deal with that. Fun, fun,
fun…I’m feeling more and more beaten down and while it may be a fleeting
moment, it makes me frustrated and tired.
I’ve considered shelving
this blog as well. I’ve shared my growth
and this journey up to a point, but it’s becoming harder to keep writing these
entries and more than that, it’s becoming more frustrating. I feel like I’m just saying the same things
again and not putting out good vibes. I
am wondering if it’s even worth doing this, especially in the days of social
media where if anyone is really worried, they can just…hit me up there. I don’t know and I’m not about to debate it
tonight. I got work in the morning and
by god I will try to get my eight hours…
November 11 – November, 12 2017
I’m announcing a hiatus
on updates for this blog. I will still
finish posting my photos, but…I need time.
I’m so full of anger and frustration right now that…to put it simply,
the last few weeks have been building up to today, which has been the cherry on
the shit sundae. The little issues are what burst dams and my dam has burst,
flooding me with all the stress in the world.
I’m tired of being angry, of having things not go my way, and of people
not taking that seriously. “He’s a rock,
he’ll survive…” yeah, true, but that doesn’t mean I want my issues dismissed. I
don’t want to deal with anything else right now, so…good bye for a few weeks.